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Originally Posted by Alone & confused
Why can't they make a drug that would keep me at hypo?! Stability for me is nothing more than a lesser form of depression. Or boredom, mediocrity, indifference. It's simply the absence of mania or severe depression. I hate it! I'm not motivated to do anything, I'm just here, able to go through the motions with no real passion or joy to it.
Now that my buzz-kill meds have brought me back down to earth, I feel unenthused about l life again! I want to stay in my "happy place"! I've spent WAYYYY to much time in the darkness and it is draining the very life out of me!
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I think too may pdocs prefer to medicate bipolars into a little depression to keep them out of any kind of mania. I put up with it for years and then started demanding better. It's taken six months of tweaking, but I now feel much better. It's not hypomania or mania, but I am functional again and I can accept this.
Tell your pdoc how you feel. Keep journals and mood charts. These will help convince the pdoc you're being compliant and know what you're talking about.