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Originally Posted by creativecortex
Sorry to hear that you're having such a hard time. I lived with people who were extremely "sorted", when my depression was at its worst and I was unable to function, our differences, and the resulting arguments, amplified my negative feelings. It's really important to not blame yourself though; it's a series of issues and circumstances which have led to it, and there's always a way out.
Do you work, or attend college or any other kind of group outside of where you live?
Do you feel like the main person in your group fully understood or listened when you explained to them how you feel?
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Thank you so much for responding. It means everything.
The main person was uninterested in my feelings. I was too much trouble and he didn't want to carry me. Now our relationship is better but I still feel uncomfortable opening up to him.
I feel alienated from my family. My interests and their interests are different. They eat meat and love sports and competitive games. They love pop music and don't have an interest in philosophy and spiritual matters.
I follow a strict spiritual path. Actually that is how I met and became part of this family. It's just that I'm more serious about it. It's not a value judgement. I do it because it's the most natural thing for me. I don't like drinking and have lived a chaste life for decades. Again, this is natural to me and not a value judgement. I like rock and roll and classical music
I just feel like I'm drifting all alone.
I lived on an ashram for 30 years and I miss it deeply. I can't join another ashram without betraying my own Guru who has passed away.
I understand these are choices and I need to take responsibility for them, but sometimes I just feel so so alone.
I imagine I've really put you off by now but I do appreciate the open door you provided. Thank you.
Should I pretend to like what everyone else does? Is that what I'm doing wrong?
Again thanks for listening