Hello..I am a 21 year old trans girl. I finally came to terms with being trans about a year ago, and came out a few months after. At the time I'd been dating a girl for a little over a year, and she has stayed with me and helped and supported me through the process.

Now, something else has become a concern lately. Since coming out as trans and exploring women's clothing, etc, I am starting to notice a trend, and almost a concerning issue within it as well. My favorite clothes are clothes that should belong to young children. You know, poofy skirts and dresses, leggings / tall socks, bring colors and/or pastels. The only hair styles I ever see and like and desire are little girls' hair (age 8 or younger).

A side note is that the most common time I feel dysphoric / upset with being trans is when I think about going through grade school as trans and wishing I'd realized I was trans many years or decades ago.

Now, none of what I said should be truly concerning, I realize, but something just doesn't feel right to me. Yesterday I was at a two-level clothing store and saw a mannequin on the above floor wearing a cute skirt and leggings and thought to myself "that looks cute, I might want that". It wasn't until I was upstairs and right next to it that I realized the mannequin was of a maybe 4-year-old girl. For some reason my mind felt 0 dissociation from that mannequin. Like there was different between the mannequin and myself. Nothing clicked and said "Hey, that's not for you."

For a while now I've felt, and have been recently realizing, that I want to be viewed in society as a young child. I never want to associate with the term "women", just girl. I call myself a transgirl, not a trans woman for this reason.

Is this a thing? Is this normal? One psychological theory I can think of is I could just have a deep desire to experience growing up as a girl instead of just becoming one, but idk