Thank you all so much for taking the time to write to me. I do appreciate it more than you know. It's so hard, I am so so disappointed about this. Only my best friend knows what I'm dealing with - with him. However, she is a big social drinker, probably on verge of alcoholism herself - but, I don't think ever to that point. So, she only gets it a little bit.

My family... I haven't told. They all think he's this great guy, the same guy I thought originally. They're so happy for me... I was happy for me. It's so so sad. I can't believe I'm in this position, and why am I even sad when he's so nasty?