I've got a feeling you still are pretty, and I reckon the bullying you received was down to envy. And probably you might have been someone who doesn't like conflict and perhaps didn't fight back perhaps, but took the bullying on board and blamed yourself for it maybe?

girls can easily get threatened by another female's apparence, and if they are on their own, or show any signs of sensitivity or vulnerability, the envious girls will be horrible to her, I see it time and time again, and in fact read a recent research paper on this, and it all boils down to an innate survival thing.

So my bet is, you are still pretty, and I bet you just need to not care so much what others think, and concentrate on you and if you feel that others have a problem with you, perhaps they are jealous.