I recently started seeing a new therapist who I like a lot and we are trying to work out scheduling. I feel like I need to see him at least 2x per week right now but telling him that makes me feel weak and needy especially since he mentioned that he sees most of his clients once a week.

I have been diagnosed with PTSD, severe depression and anxiety, and BPD. My last therapist was highly manipulative and groomed me to be very dependent on him to compensate for his own personal issues. I was to the point of calling him almost twice a day and seeing him three times per week. Now, my therapist is very professional and I don't call him between sessions because the trust is not there yet and I don't want to overstep his boundaries so this sudden decrease in therapist contact has been kind of a difficult adjustment (again he does't know that because I don't want to come across as needy)

I'm currently in a really hard place and he is my only support that keeps me somewhat stable so Im not ready to cut down on my sessions yet. I just feel so needy and weak and clingy and like I'm the only one of his clients who can't handle only once per week.