Many of us feel very similar here. I just recently attended a mental health support group I told no one --- especially my parents --- about, for many of the reasons you just mentioned. I am not diagnosed either, but just going to the support meeting and registering for this site is helping me plan to take steps to see where I can go in the new year. Many people are in the very same boat, especially around here.

Honestly the fact you registered here says a lot, since many people would probably let their struggles fester inside and keep it hidden...the fact you're posting about this makes you better than those people. This community has helped immensely since I've joined and it has been full of really helpful, non-judgmental people. It should help you understand yourself better as well as deal with all the negativity in the world.

I also get what you're saying about finding friends on chats. People's emotions are in the wrong places and they're often desperate. Thankfully, this place is a lot more civil and I'm sure the mods will jump in if you feel anyone's saying the wrong things.

You're not alone in this struggle. I am similar in that I don't have many people who support me in person. But this site helped me become a bit more independent and unfazed about what people will think of me when I seek help. Hopefully using these forums will eventually have the same effect on you.

Feel free to send a message any time. I may not have the best advice or all the answers (because I have trouble understanding my own struggles), but I keep an open mind about things and try not to judge. Up to you, however.