Hello. I can relate a lot to what you have said. My "dreams" feel so real that some parts of my memory I can't decipher what is and is not real.

Much of my memory problems were when talking to someone about something. The things were very important I remember. But I couldn't tell what part was actually real and I made up. It became so confusing that I decided not to ask anyone about the topic because I didn't know what was actually talked about and wasn't.

I did, when it first happened, I thought I was, in fact, going "crazy". I thought I was starting to develop schizophrenia when it first happened. I know now that it's 100% not schizophrenia. Not that anyone told me, but I know because it was just this one main thing that it was impacting. I feel like these episodes that happen to OCD sufferers are why OCD and schizophrenia are common to be found with each other.

What I have done now is I stopped trying to fuel the fire. At times, I just ask the people around me if what happened was real or not real. It helps at times. I feel so lost so many times. The "dream" overlapped what actually happened (me) or it filled in two pieces that weren't connected before. The question I asked myself was "is trying to remember this one event going to help me in the future or not?" The answer is "not". That is the same question for you. "Is this Jade person that you created coming up in your life right now going to help you in the future or not?" I hope your answer is not. If this spreads to other places, just ask people what was said or this was real or not. I have troubles distinguishing between real and not because my mind will play a negative spin against reality for me. I know because I made a journal, and I wrote down exactly what was said that day, and if you asked me a month later, the words said became even more negative.

I know I made this sound super easy, but it isn't for sure. My mind plays tricks on me, confuses me. I am very unsure of many things. I keep certain things in check with other people. And don't tell yourself that you should know. It's not going to help. I told myself that too when this first "episode" happened a year ago. I said I should know what is real, and became angrier at myself.

Do something distracting. For me, which I hope this doesn't happen to you, this stress was replaced by another, and this was "forgotten", but never gone. But it helped for this anyways. Hope this helps .

Social anxiety disorder, GAD, OCD, and panic attacks

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