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Old Jan 04, 2016, 10:16 PM
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Originally Posted by eskielover View Post
Lol....I can relate to the American Restoration...but i think Survival of a Single Woman would be more fitting.

Being a woman who left her H after 33 years of a bad marriage & struck off alone to a place where I knew no one, alone for the first time in my life at the age of 54. Buying a 10 acre farm in a small town in rural Ky after leaving Los Angeles Ca. where I had been born & raised & learning to do all the repairs myself not only on the farm house I bought but on the used truck & my lawn tractor that continually quit working. Working on getting my farm ready for moving my horse here & learning about raising chickens for my next project.

Meeting some of the most wonderful friends I have ever had, people who are better than the family I had & who are more than willing to give a hand when needed & in turn...I help them whenever needed also. Wonderful volunteering experiences from working on the decoration crew at the horse park & meeting interesting people, not only the wonderful crew I work with even now at the annual eventing show, but those I met from all over the world at the World Equestrian Games in 2010. Then there is being part of our women's horse group...we just finished caring for 3 abused/starved stallions our sheriff department rescued. I ended up corona ting the effort after they got it started & met amazing people around the state from that experience along with a couple of us ending up on TV a couple of times. The team work formed the most awesome bond that was there already. Enjoying helping with the 4-H horse riding trail group & working on back country trails, keeping them safe.

Learning how to repair my truck & replace my own EGR valve, fix my kitchen sink faucet & do my own plumbing jobs along with electrical problems.

I still get to enjoy my artistic side & even though I no longer play my flute professionally or program computer hardware, I substitute play piano at church when they are desperate, I enjoy any spare time making beaded jewelry & painting...self taught among amazing artists in the community doesn't compare but it is relaxing. I also found a wonderful ballroom dance instructor & group at the neighboring towns community are center & can't get my fill of ballroom dancing...something I enjoyed when I was working in aerospace computer engineering in between playing racquetball every day...back in my previous life before the age of 41. I am also the technical guru for my friends when they have no idea how computer or electronic things work & need help with setting things up.

Then there is always a little drama thrown in still needing to deal with almost x-H....who still at times haunts my life just when I think he can't possibly find another STUPID thing to do in his life to affect me.

Struggle with finances is always entertaining...used to be much worse when first moved here after finding out the bad financial things he did beyond what I knew.

The survival isn't understood really without seeing the black hole years that had major depression, major anxiety, suicide attempts, massive migraines ( or just one huge one that never went away), anorexia that took me down to 83 lbs, then ended with going through a trauma with an abusive home care person who manipulated her way into caring for my mother at home when my mom was dying of cancer & the PTSD & again anorexia that took me down to 93 that time....& the struggle it took me to get back into my mothers house (I had grown up in) in order to sell it which provided me with the way to escape the bad marriage & but my farm.

Life before Ky had very few people involved....after there are so many & so many wonderful friends as each thing I'm involved with is with a different group of people....making it a huge cast...but most important are my 3 American Eskimo dogs I have (started with 7 but older age has taken its toll). Life would NOT be complete without the character of Leo....city dog moves to the country & all his crazy experiences he's brought to my life along with his amazing LOVE....he is honestly my first true experience of knowing love which has since grown to feel for all my wonderful friends.

Another aspect that can't be overlooked are all the God experiences I have encountered since moving here. Too many things that can't just be labeled as coincidences & other friends have had & shared with me their own similar experiences. So wonderful to have friends who have had similar experiences.

Seems like life throws a new episode at me weekly...wouldn't trade a day of it for my past
I LOVE IT! WOW WHAT A STORY! You had me at "Los Angeles city girl moves to Kentucky" lol. I figured that would be interesting and then all the issues you were dealing with as well. I think my son would have had to plan my funeral or psych care.

I have social issues which pi $$ people off. Impulse issues which create stress that send me like an ostrich sticking my head in the sand making everything worse. This will lead to some meltdown where someone has to try to bring me to my senses OR maybe something good happens that drags me out of it, but none of that compares to what you've been through. Rock on with your bad self and give yourself a hug. You deserve it.

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Thanks for this!
eskielover