Stop apologizing first of all.
We all understand.

Everyone (including people here) go through periods of stress on top of their own mental illnesses. During that time, we do what we can to get through it. Including posting here, talking to family and friends or screaming into a pillow.

I know you can get through this. I know you don't think having a man is the be all and end all. Everyone is capable of love.

I cannot guarantee a fairy tale ending but I do know that it can happen. And everything you do to improve your value of yourself will only improve everything in your life.

I don't mean to sound like a pollyanna here, I know you have to kiss a lot of frogs...