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Originally Posted by Humpty Dumpty
Jupi death is final. There is no do over or reset button for life. I understand wanting to kill yourself and end it. I am there right now. I am not trying to talk you out of it but I want you to be fully aware of what you are getting yourself into. There isn't going to be a rebirth. Once you die that's it. It is over. No matter what you think there will be people that care about you that you will leave behind. Do you want to put them through this pain?
Have you tried talking to a doctor to get medicine to try and help you get control back? Are you even willing to seek medical help?
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No one would miss me and I won't cause any pain if I leave and I accept that...
Unless medicaid pay for psychological therapy, I have no other means of paying for medical help. Guess I'll find out soon if I live that long.
Wish my living situation was more peaceful but I don't deserve peace and I'm not worth peace. Everything is as stressful right now involving my family wanting money and wanting to depend on me. My girlfriend is a paraplegic and she could care less about me. She has daughter and she literally told me that she can't love or put her all in a relationship and that she she still has feelings for her ex. She told him that I was her so calles boyfriend. I honestly don't know why I put up with this.
I'm coming into some money soon and she's planning on moving back with her dad. I'm afraid to use my future money on this relationship. Especially for her because I feel that I could do something more constructive with it instead of spending it on a girl who could care less about me and a daughter that's not mine. Sometimes I think that she's only keeping me around because of money. She wants me to stay with her mom to help her with bills while she moves to another town to stay with her dad. That Doesnt sound right to me. I feel like I'm being played or something. Maybe I should go back home.