Gina I totally understand. At this point I am totally messed up also. Thankfully I really don't have to be around anyone much. People just dont understand. Its not something you can just shake or take an asprin to fix. And if they know why you are that way because of a mental illness you are labled. When I am not doing well during the depression phase I not at my best. I get upset when I get upset about things that the average person would. But when its me Im asked did you take your meds today. Its like Im supposed to be cheerful 24/7. I know that its difficult but I hope that you can find something that make your day a little better. For me its visiting differnt forums or chat rooms during the day. I am able to do that at work but most cant. I hope that your day gets better.