Lately I have been finding things stashed away bought when on the way "up"
Sometimes it's awesome (wow when did I get this bag of expensive makeup!? Score!)
Other times its like omg what was i thinking
Yikes! Lol

But I didn't expect to feel sad.
I liked, LOVED that feeling heading up

But now I'm looking back like wow
What a bunch of wasted time
Hard on my family
Hard on my brain...my life
I think about the hospital now and idk
I never want to be there again
Not for all the I'm walking on sunshine mania in the world

So much regret