Hi. I had an account here a few years go that I let go of. But due to the overwhelming changes in my life I needed to come back. So I am 25 years old with 4 children (3 girls&a boy) and the last 3 children are by my most current boyfriend of 5 years. I love my boyfriend but I think I need to be alone. Soooo if I'm gonna tell ya about it I have to tell the whole truth and nothing but the truth. Back in the earlier years of our relationship we used to fight. Like fist fight. We havent had a physical altercation in over 2 years and I dont ever see it happening again. Even though he was abusive I stayed and now I feel like I should have left and never come back. Now I'm extremely unhappy and I even cheated on him a few times. He knows nothing about my sexual conquest but he asked me numerous times Nd I denied denied denied!!!!
As you can see we both have issues and we are in a good place but I dont wanna be with the person I love more than life itself. I feel like we have ran our course. Like the things that ised to entice me are no longer there. Sex is great for him but for me I cant wait for it to be over. Then me and him and trying to get him a stable job and it's been a buss. He's a wonderful father and I love the bond he has with all my children even the one that's not his...
I feel like keeping this in is driving me nuts. Can I have some insight from complete strangers who know everything. I told all the good and bad so please give me the honest truth I need help here!