I've been doing a lot of personal development work lately and although i've always had an inner optimism and ambition,since last year,i started to realize i'm far from as positive as i had thought. I was actually someone who complained a lot,worried a lot,and now i'm even starting to wonder now if I have anger issues. A lot of the people i meet,they DO seem to just sort of move forward from things quickly and seem overall more peaceful. I do have family members with anger issues but didn't think I had anger issues,though I do have my moments where I get hot-headed but maybe I do have more anger then I realize even if it's not nearly as volatile as say,my brother for example. Maybe that had even played a part in me having trouble keeping people in my life better. Who knows. I'm just really trying to better myself and have done some work on forgiving past things. My intention is to just become one of those really peaceful,chill people who have such a relaxed,easy energy to be around. i know my energy is higher then some,though because I can tell compared to people more negative then me,that they enjoy my energy because it's more uplifting,but i'm trying to match my energy higher to that like a lot of the people I meet.

I remember once hanging out with a girl from high school who i didn't like and it was a mistake that I did(she ended up betraying me,again) and her energy had brought me so down from being so negative while driving on the way to a venue that I could hardly wait to get out of the car and meet my other friend who'd be there. As soon as we got there,the other friend's energy was just so uplifting and felt so light in comparison.Whenever I did hang out with,her energy just made you feel good to be around.

It kind of makes me sad to realize this,and it did when it came to me last summer,but I do kind of complain too much. i'm looking at this article online signs your an angry person,and I have a lot of them. I guess I just assumed people with anger issues must be people who punch walls and whatnot,but i guess not always.