What if your an angry person and don't even know it?

I've been doing a lot of personal development work lately and although i've always had an inner optimism and ambition,since last year,i started to realize i'm far from as positive as i had thought. I was actually someone who complained a lot,worried a lot,and now i'm even starting to wonder now if I have anger issues. A lot of the people i meet,they DO seem to just sort of move forward from things quickly and seem overall more peaceful. I do have family members with anger issues but didn't think I had anger issues,though I do have my moments where I get hot-headed but maybe I do have more anger then I realize even if it's not nearly as volatile as say,my brother for example. Maybe that had even played a part in me having trouble keeping people in my life better. Who knows. I'm just really trying to better myself and have done some work on forgiving past things. My intention is to just become one of those really peaceful,chill people who have such a relaxed,easy energy to be around. i know my energy is higher then some,though because I can tell compared to people more negative then me,that they enjoy my energy because it's more uplifting,but i'm trying to match my energy higher to that like a lot of the people I meet.

I remember once hanging out with a girl from high school who i didn't like and it was a mistake that I did(she ended up betraying me,again) and her energy had brought me so down from being so negative while driving on the way to a venue that I could hardly wait to get out of the car and meet my other friend who'd be there. As soon as we got there,the other friend's energy was just so uplifting and felt so light in comparison.Whenever I did hang out with,her energy just made you feel good to be around.

It kind of makes me sad to realize this,and it did when it came to me last summer,but I do kind of complain too much. i'm looking at this article online signs your an angry person,and I have a lot of them. I guess I just assumed people with anger issues must be people who punch walls and whatnot,but i guess not always.

It is said that "mentall illness runs in the family"; I'm not sure if that's popular belief or there's any credible research into that.

The fact is everyone in my family has a mental illness, and anger issues. My sister, she screwed up so many opportunities in her life because of her anger, it's unbelievable. From what I remember when she was a teenager, she always tried desperately to be popular amongst friends, and ended up doing things that attracted the wrong kind of attention instead. By not achieving what she believed was the best for her over the years, she became increasingly angry and frustrated. She's in her 50's now and hasn't changed much...

Last I heard of my sister's son (my nephew), two years ago he broke a finger after punching a wall at work, and was fired six months later because of his behaviour.

My father always had a short fuse and was explosive to touch. My mother would express her anger by being cruel and vindictive. Me? Well, being a man I ended up leaning from life how to behave the hard way, and today I manage to control myself and count to 10.

You said you're working on your personal development, that's a good thing, keep that up.

But one thing for sure, you cannot become what others are, and you cannot mimic what you admire on others. It's good to have a goal to achieve, but you gotta be careful not to set unrealistic expectations based on what you believe it's the "perfect life".

I always looked up on friends and acquaintances and wished I had their kind of life, I wished I could be the kind of cool, chilled out people that they were and be as popular as they were, a "people magnet" everyone would be attracted to.

I discovered I never was, and never will be like that. My attitude and the kind of energy I have, it just deflects people, it pushes them away.

While learning that did not improve me in any way, I least now I understand and accept myself. And sometimes that's just what a person needs to do.