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Originally Posted by sinking
Little turtle, I try to do and move as much as i can but its not much, i know i'd need more movement, i hope when the job restarts next week that it will help. I'll check on Clairee weekes, thanks.
Littleowl, yes, maybe i need to feel my pain, but its SO painful! i hate crying so i try to avoid it. some days i manage to not cry but the pain is always there, maybe even more powerful when i dont cry...
today is a long hard day, if only i could sleep it off... i hate living so many painful hours a day. sometimes im afraid im going crazy for good. i hate this situation, these feelings, this pain. i truly hate them all so much. i cant let it come. im fighting. im fighting. and its so exhausting.
tomorrow im seeing my good T after a month, but i have lost faith he can do anything to help me. i have lost faith in everything, meds, docs, life...
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Claire Weeks talks sense.
It's important that you can feel and express how you feel. The more you bottle it up, the more intense it becomes. In psychology I was taught to recognise emotions as just emotions which come and go but also are a way to communicate with yourself about how you are, if ignored, they shout louder to get your attention. Also the body's reactions to emotions can be scary, pounding heart, nausea, shaking etc. They are, however, harmless, however unpleasant they are. Your body can cope with these symptoms so if you can tolerate them they reduce over time.
I encourage you to cry whenever you have the privacy and urge to do so. You may not like them, but tears are healing.
From one cryer to another, hang on in there and allow your eyes to leak as much as they want to. A hard crying session is exhausting, but can leave you with a strange calmness which I believe is better than the bottled up state.
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