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Nike007 · Feb 02, 2016, 07:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Lenozi

Hello
I apologise if I am posting this in the wrong area, but I really don't know what category this would go in.

I'd just like some guidance or for someone to tell me they have experienced anything similar as im going through a difficult time with these feelings and behaviours. It's driving me crazy...

It started awhile ago when I was unsure about something and I started to assosciate my right hand and the number 2 with that thing I was unsure about. To me, that thing was bad, and I didn't want it. I'd go out my way to make sure when I was doing something it was with my left hand, or at least touch whatever I was doing with my left hand last. I know it sounds crazy

I couldn't have the number 2's being last in a sequence and I hated doing things twice, it had to be once or three times. Now it's escalated and it's everyday. I avoid things on the right, i have to look at the left side of things, I can't look at 2's or for example take the second can of coke, it has to be another.
Every night I have some crazy weird kinda ritual things I have to do. If I dont do them then I have this horrible feeling of uneasiness and I feel so uncomfortable, I almost always force myself to go and do it. I always say if I don't then I will have something bad happen, or my friends/family will suffer.
When I don't use my left hand for things its like I feel tainted.

I seriously want this to go away. It makes me feel like im completely crazy, because its so specific and weird... It manifested so quickly and now im afraid it'll never go away. Everyday I feel like im creating new behaviours to do, and I keep adding to the list.

Im sorry. I just needed to vent a little, everyone I talk to about this laughs at it because it sounds funny lol, I laugh as well because I dont want to sound weird.
I thought it sounded like it was ocd related but I was told by my family and friends that it wasn't. Im so lost

thank you for reading.

Hello. I am not a professional, and can not diagnose you with any mental illness. But this is my cup of tea.

It sounds like some type of OCD. You mention avoiding things because of this obsession with right and 2. This seems to be causing you distress a lot also. I would seek mental health services as soon as possible. If people are laughing at you for your troubles, don't listen to them about how you are wrong. Pursue help as soon as possible.

It sounds crazy to people with absolutely no experience with OCD because have no experience. I obsess with certain numbers like 1, 3, 4, 5, 7, 9, 10 as an example. I don't have anything bad about direction, but it doesn't mean it's not a real thing at all. I haven't heard that one though. You also mention performing rituals over this, which is a sign of OCD, especially if you don't want to do it. Please seek guidance. CBT is used to help OCD patients, specially exposure therapy. You have to get exposed to your fear slowing with guidance of a professional usually. Also, to help your overall health, try exercising, eating healthy, getting a good sleep, meditating, whatever works for you. I was recently diagnosed with OCD, and have live the troubles of OCD for years. I would have intrusive thoughts quite often. Recently, since I have been super stressed, hand-washing started to occur, which is what most people think of OCD, but that's not what it is. It's a lot more than that. If you have more questions, reply back or PM me. Welcome to PC and hope you find the help you need

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