I think last night was my tantrum, or enough to hold me.

I could have gone to the hospital tonight if I'd not taken meds. I should be going tomorrow or Thursday (it's easier for me to go Thursday b/c I have a ride but I don't care a bit that tomorrow is not ideal. I'm just waiting to hear what bed hold my pdoc made. I told her I didn't care.

So now I'm running around trying to get my house somewhat in order. This has taken so long that all the preparation I had done is undone. But I'm about out of energy so it's going to be good enough soon. I just don't want my mom to feel like she has to clean over here while I'm gone.

Hopefully I"ll be up and able to go early in the morning if it's tomorrow and if not it will be early on Thursday for sure.

Will post more when I know.