I too, wish you and others had more choices. The US president said the government was going to pump millions of dollars into mental healthcare...but if it is government as usual, a lot of money will be wasted. My ex therapist told me that as of this year, our state's public and contracted facilities are no longer allowed to do psychotherapy. They have a checklist they have to go through, basically for liability purposes, and if a certain number of boxes can be checked then they are mentally healthy. This is a state that had a mass public shooting. But, this is also a state where foster children live, actually play and sleep for days, in the offices of the case workers, because their are not enough foster homes. But, I will continue to wish for more, and better mental healthcare for all.

Also, as I thought more about my search today, I think I was avoiding my life.