I think it is mature of you to realize changing careers might be too much right now, based on your past experiences.

On the doctor issue, I also have had some that state anxiety is primary and BP secondary which is irritating. Inevitably they downplay BP needs, accommodations, etc. But then the flip side is that they don't put you under a microscope and have the psych ward on speed dial or subject you to a sudden police wellness check because you took half a day to return their call...

So I've learned to grit my teeth when I describe a hallucination and the pdoc just looks blankly at me (young looking female, hypochondriac = formula for being unheard by doctors in general), if I want to maintain the relationship because my med combo is working.