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Originally Posted by just2b
I want my T to be like a mom to me, and i know she cant. I struggle with this and host has no idea. T gave system a blanket a long time ago and I am curled up in that and just coming off of 5 vodka drinks mixed with oj. Gosh my head hurts. I just want T to hold me and she will never. and using blankie wont ever fill that void. Is there anything that will? Host will be mad she is not very understanding of needs when it comes to wanting T. Not even sure what got me out today.because of the feelings for T I much rather have stayed in. not sure what got me out and honestly it pisses me off
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I really get that. Only, I don't want (ex
) T to be my big brother, he
is my big brother. Blood means ****. The fact his body is ten years younger than mine means ****. I used to hold my T's hand sometimes, but we can't do that any more. I seem to always be my left hand, and one time he caught my right hand stopping my left hand from reaching out to him. It was dead embarrassing, but he didn't say anything. I reckon he was, like, WTF! in his head when he saw that! Im gutted cos we fired him a couple of weeks ago and I don't even understand why
I don't have a blankie - that sounds lovely - really comforting. But I do have a nice piece of tree. Its only a bit of wood, but its got marks from where he chopped it, and I know he gave it to
me and that he saw
me, and it smells like apple. I really want to go back