I have no intent of hurting others because I want as few people to get involved as possible. If I talk to my parents they will just tell me to buck up. I'm sorry I really don't want to speak to a priest because there is nothing he can do about this.

Mainly I hate myself because I have always thought that I am always wrong. In fact I grew up being told that I was always wrong in whatever I did and I had to compromise in the end. Like the time I wanted to join the military but my parents wanted me to be doctor. I compromised by taking a pre-law course because that's the most "respectable" thing to do. Now I am trapped with getting a job that I may not be good at or less even like to do.

Thanks for checking in though.