None of my family seem to understand or even try to understand my diagnosis / behind the diagnosis. I gave up a long time ago and I feel so much resentment towards them. They still make very little to no effort to sit down and hear me out let alone hear what I'm saying not just listen.

That's why I'm here because I have no one offline who remotely understands me. It's horrible and it makes me feel awful, there's not a lot to say other than keep trying. If it's important to you, it should be important to your husband.

I hope you feel better.