Since I will need to be going out in a few minutes, I won't have time to give too much of a response.

I do think writing down may be good for you to get some of this low-self esteem and destructive thoughts out in the open. I have an adult daughter who is currently on Wellbutrin. Without my being aware at the time, many years later she informed me of her self-medication around the age of 12.

She has been married and has two adult children. She has been divorced for some time now. She does not like commitments and prefers to have time to herself. I see much of what you are saying relating to her.

I really have to leave now; but know it is good to get these tho thoughts and feelings out of your system...It would be good to have things written down before going to the doctor so you don't wander all over the place. This might help you to stay on track.

Gerry