Eff the guy that wrote that "victim" mentality stuff ... For every article like that I'm fairly certain there are at least a hundred (or more) that can refute the hell out of it! ... Besides, people that blame the victim for their pain and suffering are most often the very abusers that are causing their pain and suffering in the first place, so I ain't buyin' into that BS!

Suicidal Ideation is always on the back burner for me ... It's part and parcel of the C-PTSD I developed from all the abuse I grew up in, and I've been to that door a time or two myself ... Failing one attempt & getting admitted IP by the therapist I had at that time, then being scared enough to check my own butt into the hospital IP the next time it got bad enough that I actually thought about acting on it ... I was right where I needed to be both times, because it kept me safe until the intensity of it passed.

It's taken 23 years to get where I'm at now, and I'm so glad my attempt failed ... My mantra now is, "I ain't giving the bastids THAT!" ... The bastids being my toxic family of origin and THAT being my life!

I decided after the 2nd time I was in the hospital to just leave the ideation on the back burner ... I can always choose that option if I so desire, and in the meantime, it took a lot of pressure off of me and has allowed me to discover some things about myself I never would have had I succeeded.

I hope you choose to stick around and discover some things about yourself and your condition too ... Mental Health Issues are not a choice, they are a serious condition ... It doesn't mean you are a failure, weak, defective, a victim, a loser or anything like that, and anyone that tries to tell you any different is sicker than you are, believe that!

Also believe that you are worth getting the help you need no matter how many times you have to try before finding what works best for you -

Suicide NOT Included!

Sincerely,
Pfrog!