Wow...I had no idea how toxic that site was. I'm only reading in non-member mode now, but still...extreme introversion I can't help but see as strength, disgusted and cynical rants labelled as "perceiving the world the way it truly is" that terrify me for my own survival and worth (I want to understand the truth, whatever the hell it is...but I'm not intelligent enough), just loads of ideas and points and other things that scare me for my wellbeing and survival.

Damn it, is it so wrong to want to be safe and happy, to have some fulfilling things in one's life and enough stuff to live on? That's about all I'm hoping for now.

And yeah, I've gone from calm to miserable pretty fast. I need some serious time away from that site, if I can keep myself away.

EDIT: It literally just occurred to me that the conversation I was referring to ("perceiving the world...") was between two notoriously cynical, negative posters. Of course one lauded the other as correct. But they're also smarter than most people because certain traits...gah, I don't know.