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Originally Posted by Ocean Swimmer
What do you mean by I'm not okay?
Love comes in many forms. Take what you need and leave the rest.
Not everyone is marriage material.
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I'm not into that.
I just am scared of the emotions I feel. It hurts alot in the fact it feels temporary. I'm of course enjoying it to the fullest, but my feelings of the abandoned self and the side people mistreat me. Feeling I don't belong and having to struggle for small brief happiness isn't fun or great. I really struggle with that logic with emotions and all kinds of relationships .
I feel everyone will leave me and the fact I feel likemy value is based on my body and my emotional state or how much I have. It's never something not conditional and conditions are great just. I needed something specific I'll never get and I want to die many days because I don't want accept it for what it is.