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Originally Posted by Nammu
I've found that NA is better than aa. But if you are struggling that much a 30 day program or maybe a 90 day outpatient program. I think they decrease the amount of time as it progresses. Intense and daily the first month and then three times a week down to a weekly check in but it probably depends on the area you live and what's available.
I'm wondering if kicking out your be would help? He sound very unsupportive and triggering.
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I don't remember bringing up my bf in this post but I often do here. And yes he triggers mood swings in me often. But I push his buttons too. I can be quite evil too him at times. He puts up with a lot of my BS and even though we fight, I would of ditched my a$* a long time ago lol. He watches me search for a high on a daily basis and I imagine it makes him feel like he's not doing his job fulfilling my needs with love. I hope he understands it's not his fault though. Just last night (after being under the influence) I cried to him about how sorry I was and that I'm considering rehab. He listened and wiped my tears. As much hardship I may bring up on here, I leave out the good stuff. Two sides to every story. And when it comes to triggers, when I'm stressed out for a high, a friggin fly on a wall could make me go off lol. My BP has a lot to do with it and I get triggered easily. But I'm not taking the right steps to cope with these triggers. So I'm happy to say that today I called to set up therapy. It's not rehab but it's a step in the right direction!