thanks... i've had ample time to contemplate these things...
i just have to try to be patient till i can get back with a doctor...
i still refuse to go back to the old pdoc though... he doesnt like me i guess...
maybe they get upset because i can be smarter than them sometimes
but my GP doesn't really know anything about mental health i think.. she is youngish, cant be too much older than me even..
so she doesnt really want to just give me meds, but is there anyway i can get like a consultation with a pdoc that can make reccomendation to my GP on what to prescribe till i can get in with a pdoc full time?
i just cant afford it right now... no insurance or income

im going to look into those things you mentioned, i've always been scared that there is something really wrong with me physically...

those sensations dont happen all the time, it just happens enough for me to realize it.. like when im on the verge of panicking... which i avoid pretty much everything to stay away from any possible triggers... but apparently i trigger myself alot...

my blood pressure has been elevated here and there when i go to docs... like last week i went and my blood pressure was 153/103.. i dunno much about those numbers but the nurse wanted to know why it was so high, i told her i guess my anxiety i dunno..
but i just start feeling more disconnected than panicky ultimately... like it went from panic attack to sleep walking mode

i guess i'll be fine, i just hate not remembering stuff... i think i read somewhere on the internet that my scores meant that my working memory was not really working so well

which sucks because im supposed to be super smart, i just forget everything...
my brain is weary

edit:
oh and i was looking up more stuff lsat night, and that popping sensation feels like a heart palpitation or murmur..