the silver and golden rules are saying... do no harm....I have always thought about that mainly not hurting others....but I tend not to pay attention when I am hurting myself....when I am not standing up for myself I think I am hurting me...when I wanted to die what was I thinking....I don't usually wish others dead...why me...I was feeling guilty that I let my family down when I broke down...why should I feel guilty about breaking down with depression...