no its ok, you didnt say anything wrong
but it is that i have been thinking a lot to myself that i really shouldnt post because i am really messed up right now... its just if i ever actually help someone just a little its like the only pleasure i am allowed to feel if that makes sense...
i've messed my mind up... and its increasingly more difficult to focus.. but i dont have a doctor right now either because no insurance or money and pretty much told off the community clinic ... i wasnt rude and they said i could come back if i wanted but i dont think they can help me anyway... i need special help... i do wish i had some kind of medicine to stop the madness a little though... im feeling too much.. not too much.. too different... but its not too different in that sense... im conflicted.. and what i feel should not be possible but it is happening.. and i feel like my mind is tearing me apart from the inside
feel too many ways at once... i cant think well enough to describe it, i think i've gone insane...
but all is well that ends well.. as long as i remain in control... and dont make a complete fool of myself...im hoping to have a doctor before the end of the year... but i cant think ahead because i dont know how im going to survive it..
and now im writing too much in someone elses thread, i just wish everyone could be happy
there has to be a light - i hope...