Nicole, i understand depression. It sucks the energy and the life out of you. It wears you out physically, emotionally. It depletes everything you hold dear and rips it from your life with great disinterest. I would get into therapy asap and also join a support group of your fellow peers. When around others with similar situations they accept you and understand you. And you can see the different levels and how people got past them. And you can make friends and eventually go places to outings.
Just don't sell yourself short is what i am saying... we are our brother's keeper and we need to reach out for help, who better than another in like shoes? i wish you all the best in your journey and recovery... blessings and tc