My sessions are fine. My T is fully attentive.

For some reason, I just feel i am nothing. I am nobody.
I have seen some of the other clients, and think they are probably more important to T than I.
I feel inferior.
i feel extremely great ful for the paid time he spends with me.

it maybe interfering with my therapy as i think that he is too good for me.

i dont deserve him.

Everytime i walk out of my session, i am in awe. i commend his patience, his willingness to work with me. (its not easy)
i also leave feeling insecure...i ask myself..how long will this last? what will make him leave? this is too good to be true.
like after i leave, i also think T must be thinking good riddance. thank God this is over. now time to get ready for the important client.

again . T is great in session. 100% present with me. just my head goes in different places...telling me this is not real.
i know what i think and feel..what about him?

is this insecurity normal?
i have been with this T for a year.