I actually have listened on a suicide hotline for many years. Our volunteers are trained, experienced adults who help thousands of callers each year. The vast majority of our calls are from people who are not suicidal but are dealing with significant problems and/or are alone.

If you are awkward on the phone calling a hotline might not be ideal, but even so it could be a way to tide yourself over when there is a long time between sessions with t. It is an option. You could call a few of them and figure out which one (if any) best suits you.