Thank you Seesaw.

Part of me knows this is something I'll need to do, but doesn't want to...I guess because it seemed to have marginal benefit, and under the circumstances, be a lot of difficult mental/emotional work requiring time and effort (and this was in individual and group therapy for it). I know anything worth doing requires work. I probably need to make a decision to just get over it and start working in a concerted effort on my recovery again.

I feel exhausted, but I'll take this to heart and take the first step this weekend...which is just getting out the book and starting on a worksheet or something (can't believe as an educated adult, I have to do this I'll admit). It feels humiliating.