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He says he is with me to the end....

but doing the work on my own scares me, he isn't there to bounce this stuff off of, there isn't anybody there to talk about my feelings or how scared I am...........

So I end up getting mad, and angry at him, and saying things to myself to reinforce the fact that I don't want him in my healing anymore.........but then the next hour I am crying because I cannot do this and he doesn't seem to care....

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confused, why do you say there isn't anybody to talk to your feelings about? Your T said you can continue therapy with him and that he is with you to the end. Why does that make you feel like you can't talk to him? Can't you still go to your therapy sessions and talk and share with him and receive his support? It sounds like his suggestion that you take a more active role in choosing your healing path has made you feel like you can't talk and share with him anymore. I don't think that's true! He is waiting for you to make an appointment. He knows you don't have one on the books and he reached out to you by email, probably because he wants you to come and see him so he can help you through this. I hope you will make an appointment soon and go and get the reassurance that being with him and talking and sharing can bring. (((hugs)))

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He told me that I have done the hardest part, disclosing to my family, to him. I let the secret out, and it doesn't have the power over me it used to. Then how come I feel so bad?? ....

Is disclosing the hardest part of all this for everyone???

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Even though you've disclosed, you are still processing. It may take a while. Your T can help with this. Disclosing is hard for me, but the aftermath is hard also. You are not alone in this. My T used EMDR with me (after disclosure) to help speed the processing and healing. Different Ts have different approaches to this. Please ask your T what he can recommend that you do together in therapy to help with this. Sometimes it's hard to choose unless we know the options.