Yes, I do have issues in being independent and a lot of it is too do with the fact that I feel lost and unsure of my dreams and ideas, if there is anything valuable or achieveable. I just feel so unsure and yes I do think she is trying to upset me so I get out but something inside me when that happens just makes me even more apathetic and feel even more powerless and not want to do anything. It just adds to my confusion if you get what I mean. The sad part is no one can stop me from being confused or make my own decisions for me this is where I have to become independant and confident enough to believe in my thoughts, feelings, ideas, dreams but that is so hard. I just feel so conflicted that at times I can't think of the bigger picture and in all of my emotions I make up plans that don't make sense in the hope that I can "run away" from my feelings, my responsibility, my confusion. However, no matter what plan I make I feel more confused. I know when I was living on my own the confusion went away something about living alone gave me the breather and I felt like I had my confidence and my identity back. I don't have a job but I have been doing as many courses as I can because that looks very pretty on a resume. All I need now is to trust that I am capable enough to sell myself to the world on that piece of paper. I guess I just need self trust and belief that I can do it. I do know if I do live with others I cannot just leave my stuff laying around I will have to not forget things. That is where I become stuck in my struggle to become independant I have adhd and my concentration is so bad that people have to pick up after me and when I was in hostels that was no ideal I got into some much trouble and fights on it just because I forgot stuff. The only good thing I have about being at home is my mother understands how my mental illness impacts me but others may not be so understanding and may instead being highly critical of me and not compassionate at all.