I really don't have a decent comment on your situation and I'm sorry for that, Tisha...

I just wanted to sympathize with you. I can understand the feeling that you're screaming at the top of your lungs and people can't hear you, metaphorically speaking, of course.

I have been so darn...hysterical..over things in my life and thought that I couldn't possibly communicate any louder....could I? And then been told "I had no idea..." It makes me think that people don't want to hear me, or I really am not being clear. I still don't know.

I do think that (and men...don't take offense at this please) men don't listen the same way women do....like they wait until things are way past the danger level...

Anyway. It's insanely difficult to predict what the future might be like and it's real easy to question yourself.
Don't forget that it's not such a good idea to self-diagnose yourself. Or label yourself in any way. But that's just my opinion.

Hugs..