Hi,

I've been doing therapy work to heal from dissociation (cutting off my emotions). Lately, I've noticed I seem to be 'thinking away' my life. Like, when I feel tired at night, instead of switching off the TV/laptop, going to brush my teeth and getting to bed, it's like there's an explosion in my head of all the things I should do first. If I'm about to cry, the same thing - my mind explains away the reasons I should cry. This happens with everything - when I'm hungry, happy, whatever..

I think this became a habit of mine growing up with parents who didn't accept/appreciate my authentic self. They got angry (like, really livid - they were scary and dangerous) when I was myself. But now, even if (when) some people won't accept me, I don't want to lose myself. If I meet people who will threaten me for being myself, I'll do everything I can to avoid them. At work, I'll try to get along with people as best I can, but not to the point of losing myself. And the people who do like, appreciate and accept me as I am, well, they're the ones I hope to become friends with

Just felt I needed to share this.. Hope it'll help me let go of the excessive thinking..