Hi, Goldie. I don't know that faking will be in your best interest; might get the immediate problem to blow over but it will only come around again if what's "underneath" it isn't resolved? Yes, it's my experience that therapy gets messier before things get better. But one can't really lock the door on the old stuff, it will just keep expanding under the pressure until it explodes and makes a worse situation to recover from than your current symptoms of snapping off heads. Wishing it away doesn't work.