well..

i saw a therapist today :/

im just worried about sending her to therapy

sometimes i can be cold ... but im warm, its just no feeling involved...
i say something shocking, i realize... oh... i forgot... that stuffs not normal...

i have been having an internal war for a very long time
but ive grown to think the 2 sides are together... they just need each other... good and evil... then me... but its all me
it doesnt really matter

im really tired because i have been fighting for a long time...
but i am so tired because i wont let myself give up
to be a worse enemy, and to be a best friend...

but im still trying to figure out if this isn't a dream

i HATE waiting rooms.......