Humans are social being. You can't rely on someone to make you happy but having no one can make you lonely and sad.

Youve been through a lot of trauma with what happened. There are kind loving people out there. You are young and will probably cross paths with someone that feels right.

Do you think it would be best to work on what happened and find some healing before things get complicated by your trauma?

I hope you find someone who shows you the love you deserve. No one deserves what happened to you and I'm sorry you had to live through that and carry the mental scars with you. You had something taken away from you that makes you feel free, your personal choice. He did what he did and it was the worst type of thing someone could do to someone else and you didn't have any control over the situation.

You can find love. There are a lot of people out there in the world and most of them are kind and loving.