I am an addict with borderline personality disorder. I was in a relationship with a wonderful girl for almost eight years. I put her through a lot, believe me I know. She stood by me through it all until we split. The problem is that we never really split emotionally, we saw each other off an on, just no commitment. She was hot and cold and now I live 1200 miles away and she called about a month ago and asked if I would come up and see her. Now it's been two weeks since I've talked to her(I never initiate the contact). I just assume she's found someone to replace me. But this has really sent me into an emotional downward spiral.
I am feeling like a total screw up. No money,no job,no relationship, no friends, criminal record, and going through midlife crisis. Just needed someone to hear.