Hang in there! My symptoms are more apparent. My paranoia makes me behave very slowly...just being cautious, I think. But when everyone is home I feel like I'm more focused on them that I'm slightly less symptomatic. It's weird but similar to you. I hope you try yoga or breathing exercises. That's what I do which my t recommends. By the way, I haven't seen my t in 4 weeks cuz he's in Europe. I'll see him on Monday which I feel like I can manage on my own now. Pfft! Anyway, we have to be our own advocates and cheerleaders to make us feel better. No one can do that for you! I believe your stronger than you think and you can do it. So hang in there and no more hospital! Take care!