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Originally Posted by Humpty Dumpty
Back in February of 2015 I almost killed myself. I had the bottle of pills in my hand but in the end I decided to put them up. I was worried I didn't have enough to kill myself. If I had 1 more pill, to make it double the max daily dose, I would have done it. To this day I still regret not doing it. I turned to my wife for help and got yelled at. I feel like I can't trust her anymore and when I bring that up she makes me feel like I'm the bad guy. I think about suicide daily, but in the end I'm too much of a coward to do it now.
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Humpty Dumpty, You may already realize this but your issues with your wife may be at least partially responsible for your suicidal thoughts. Having made an attempt, sometimes I think we dream about suicide because it's much less painful than thinking about what is truly bothering us. Unfortunately, a good relationship isn't a one-sided thing. But examining your feelings about your wife (does her attitude break your heart? Allow yourself to feel it and acknowledge it) could decrease your desire to die. I truly hope your suicidal thoughts end. Myst
