Cut yourself some slack. People who requests transfers in your situation are bound to have some anxiety about it. It sounds like you really need this transfer so you have a lot of emotional baggage pertaining to it coming through. It sounds like it is mostly out of your control right now, and that is sometimes hard to accept. Continue doing your best. Keep your promise and wait a week before asking. If the time to ask comes up, don't be nervous, you are just following through on something important to you. That is a normal and healthy thing to do. I'm wishing you luck on the transfer. Keep us posted. (((Hugs)))