I get home from work tonight and I'm just sitting in my driveway thinking about I don't know how much longer I can hold on. I'm ready to give up. I thought about calling the local crisis hotline, but then I'm like why? What can they really do for me? They aren't really allowed to give advise. They'll ask me questions like why do I want to kill myself. Other than I'm tired of being sad all the time I really don't know why. I can't explain it other than I view it as a welcome release. They would recommend me to goto an ER or a local mental hospital which I won't do. So why even bother?