You may love this guy but you're not in love. In fact I feel by what you're saying that you are completely irreversibly turned off by him. The chemistry is gone. Resentment has built. All signs of impending dissolution of relationship. You are basically room mates.

Go live your life. You are too young to not be enjoying it. He is by far one of the biggest red flags I've read about here so far. Put as much distance as you can from the guy. Change your number or block his. Make him a distant memory. You watch. After a while when you've healed those feelings you don't have right now will come raging back. I can say that with certainty. I went through it with my ex husband (the lack of sexual attraction not the cross dressing). A week after I left not a word of a lie I was ready and willing it was so foreign a feeling I wasn't sure what to do. I figured it out quickly and now have a new husband and well things work fine in that department. We were together 6.5 yrs before we married. We had to be sure it was right. And it's more than right. I'm no spring chicken either.

I'm sorry you're going through this. Ending a relationship is not easy. I wish you the best in whatever choice you make. Take care of YOU!