Can't stop crying, the reality is setting in that my Grandpa really is gone forever, and I'll never get to talk to.him again. I'll really miss our 3am chats especially if I was manic/hypomanic and he was a nocturnal creature like myself. I'll just miss everything about him. I know he's in my heart and watching over us. But I just wish I had one more.chance to tell him in person that I love him.

As of right now trying to distract myself from crying a bit by posting on here and maybe getting something to eat.